First of all, this will be a Long Journal. I Apreciate anyone who give his time to read it, and even more if you give the time to comment on it.
First of all, Since my last Journal I have being felling quite better with myself, with my self steem with the Joy of life and keep moving forward. Life have being way better since i started to talk my problem with the people who wanted to listen (I recomend that, in case you are felling down, don't hesitate to aproach people who care, they will be for you and everyone need to release their Pain), Vent my drawing with Art (If you can express what bother you, do so. Dance, Sing, Draw, Write, if you can do something in special release that pain you had), and look at the mirror everyday telling me how i'm important for people and for myself (I have being doing this everymorning, and boy, it's simple but have improved my self-happyness a lot). That are those things i could say for help you guys in case you need it in the same way i did.
Second, Technically after all my research and info, i should be starting my Thesis last week, reason i have being a bit slow in art, thought i still keep working on it. I'm advancing in commission slowly, but i'm trying to not stop in work on art as best i can.
Third; This week have being, quite stressing mentally for me, and a lot of things happen that honestly, i need to vent out of my chest.
Monday: Before my Morning started i get the new that the Laboratorist quit the Job, and now i was in charge of the Magistral Recetary of the Pharmacy. The Unexpected change, new responsabilities, new things i should concentrate... Let me say make me get anxious. It's a big burden over my back. And it comes with a Bitter surprise, while i'm working more hours, have more responsabilities, my wage haven't changed. I won around 40 US (20.000 Chilean Pesos) Per day, which in a way it's bitter, besides my she-boss want me to do still things i used to do as a simple intern (Work in the counter, look for charge, sent to the bank for make deposits, etc) Which take time off doing prescription and Lab Work. But that it's the life of a non contracted Internist.
Thursday: One of my close friend, Pawpy, started to feel really, really depressed. I really get worried and tried my best to help him to feel better as well trying to help everyone in the circle of himself that was felling "blue" Honestly, doing this, plus the extra work and adaptation of it make me feel Mentally tired.
Wednesday: My Mom, discover that my father had a new "Girlfriend" even if she was divorced for around 15 years ago. She get quite depressed, really depressed and i end having a fight for the treatment she give me that day. Working was awfull and i barely worked well. Then once i arrive from work, my mom release a lot of pain and cry to me, everything since the divorce, the cause of it, how much he forgive my father and how much he was unleal to her. A lot of story I ignored, that hurt to hear, but i still put my ear for her.
Today: My mom, talked with me before i leaved Work. She is gonna leave the house, she don't want to see my father anymore by any chance and she want to get away. She promised she was gonna comunicate with us, sent money for pay the basic stuff of it, but for now on, I'm the head of the House, i should decided in what i'll spend the money she will sent., how i'll distribute my time with work and the house, etc. it's another burden, but for see her happy, i'll take it.
Honestly, was a crazy Week. I was needing to release this and vent some, honestly i'm still feel happy, joyful, my mood haven't changed. I'm gonna keep working ahead, keep smiling to myself against the mirror, but sure, it's making me feel mentally tired.
Thanks for Reading me, for the ones who read it all, for the ones who comment on it, that show care, support and comfort.